summer school, such a blast..

So I honestly can’t believe its starting to be the second week of June! Half the year is gone! I went home for a few weeks in May and then will be planning to back for a few weeks in August and get some wedding stuff done. Wedding stuff..I LOVE that

Sooooo I’m taking 12 hours this summer. AH! I know, I know, I’m crazy. So far I started a computer class (Marketing of Recordings) and a MW night class (Consumer Behavior) and its too bad…yet! Although, I have to say, I wouldn’t have signed up for these classes and many hours if I knew I couldn’t do, so therefore I can and must accomplish and take on this summer.

I’m watching Home Alone 2 and I have to say, this movie never gets old. I love that it’s filmed in New York and in Christmastime! Everytime I watch this it renews my love and one day I will visit NYC during Christmas. The movie Elf does this too me also.

Well, its just about 7 months til my wedding, and 2 days past Tony and I’s 4 year anniversary. I feel like the wedding is soo far away but I know it isn’t, and people tell me that it’ll go by in a blink! And I know it will, I guess because I’m so anxious and SO excited it feels like it’s taking a little longer. I am so excited though, about the wedding and getting married but knowing that I was put on this earth to share my life with this person. Tony is someone that was hand picked by God just for ME! And to know that is just so great.

I was looking at my scrapbook, back at high school days and camp and thought wow we’ve all come so far. We really are growing up. I look at 11 and 14 year old girls I began to knew when they were like..7 and everytime I say “This makes me feel old” and he we are, graduating college, getting real jobs, getting married! I’ll come back 10 years later and say the same thing.

Anyways, I’ll probably update in a month..hopefully sooner! Be loved, be blessed!

i’m getting old!

okay not really…but I still can’t believe that I’m turning 22 this week! I remember being in elementary wondering what how I would act like or if I would look different when I graduated from junior high in 8th grade. And then I went into high school, and then I turned 18 and graduated high school and hit my big 2-1! And here I am about to turn 22, and my next biggest birthday won’t be til I’m 25 and I wont doubt that that will be here before I know it.

It’s crazy! I sometimes read my old xanga I had on here (anyone remember that?) and I laugh at some of the stuff I wrote about and am amazed at some of the stuff I wrote about. It’s great. And now I don’t know why I’m awake at 2 in the morning when I have a 9am class in the morning, Copyright Law. Let me tell ya, if you can avoid Copyright Law at 9 in the morning MWF, DO IT! But unfortunately, it was the only time I could get it. And now I could very well be failing, which completely stinks! It’s one of those classes where you study the hardest and thing you’re doing alright and you get grades and exams back and you’re like, jeez…thanks for this non-A or non-B…and to top it off, after turning in an assignment and feeling good about it I turned in the WRONG assignment, and of course my professor would be the one that does not accept late or incorrect assignments…

Nevertheless I try not to act like its the end of the world. I e-mailed her, do my best, do what I can and move on. I have always been a person to get overly upset and dwell on something when I shouldn’t. I am learning and feel I am doing better.

In other news, I survived my first tornado warning and take cover! Last friday as soon as I got to school our tornado sirens went off and the sky looked wierd!! I got to my class building and we had to be held in the hallway for about an hour and a half. Thankfully the tornados didn’t touch down in our area, but they touched down REALLY close to us. It was the scariest moments of my life, and here I thought I moved out of tornado alley! When I drive to church or work, I pass by where the tornado went through across the highway at an exit before you reach my exit to my apt and school. It’s INSAANE. To see that destruction of the trees and houses!

I’m starting to get sleepy now, which stinks because I want to continue talking about this, but I do need to get to bed. I’ll ‘blog’ later!

stir our affections for you, Jesus

I don’t truly don’t know if anyone reads this but nonetheless, oh how I love writing!

Today I visited another church here this cold dreary morning. I enjoyed it! I’m catching the last part of the series the church is doing based on the “Love Dare” from the movie “Fireproof”. Too bad, and too bad Tony isn’t here to listen with me, it would have been good for our upcoming marriage! But oh how good our Lord is! Here it is, almost April!! Not counting this upcoming week, I have 3 full weeks of school left before finals! I prayed this semester would go by fast, and it surely is flying by.

God has been so good to me, this weekend I’ve enjoyed his earthly creations with amazing weather, a couple of storms, and listening to Shane and Shane and Phil Wickham who have the blessed ability to be able to write about it with such beautiful words! I’m listening to a live worship version for “It Is Well” (which happens to be my favorite hymn) that Shane and Shane are leading, and in his opening his prayer he prays that the “stir our affections for you, Jesus”.

Stir our affections for you, Jesus

I love that! Because so many times we become sucked into a day-to-day rut, and once a week find our affection and our praise for God, and really it should be an every minute, daily, plea! I’m writing this and smile because I feel the guilt coming on of not accomplishing this either, but we are human, but we are human that serves a good and gracious and forgiving Father. The creator of the EARTH, the Lord of the NATIONS, who sits on his throne in Heaven and has made us a room in that most perfect place, wants a relationship with ME, with YOU, with US, His children.

So I continue to encourage you, everyday, stir your affection for our most amazing God, and let Him love you with that most perfect love.

halfway point!

oh my goodness! it’s already the middle of the semester and I have only 6 weeks left of actual school left before finals and the end of the semester! I started this year wondering if it would go as fast as 2008 went and I am starting to believe that it will be. It’s already March and just less than 10 months til my wedding! I can not wait to be a wife! To be able to share my life and exciting things with Tony, including graduating from college and internships and starting a new job and to come home and share that with him and for him to do the same.

For my spring break I pretty much slept as much as I could, and we’re talking about sleeping in til 10 or 11 and still taking naps. I didn’t get any homework done pretty much, but that’s what the weekend is for. But really, I am grateful for the sleep, it’s always a good week when all you can do is just catch up on sleep!

This past weekend was a wierd feeling, and a good weird feeling. Sheeva and Brenton came and visited us in Nashville. Sheeva stayed with me and Brenton stayed with Sam and Sam ending up being a pretty good tour guide and showing us all around downtown Nashville and the great eatery’s. And it was wierd because of the fact that I even had visitors! I live here now, and it was wierd that I wasn’t driving back with them to go back to Texas but that I drove back to my apartment here in TN. Oooh the chapters of life..

forgiveness, is more than saying sorry

it makes me laugh whenever i sing that, from the movie Just Friends! but in a way, its kinda the truth.

we serve a MERCIFUL and FORGIVING Father, and thank the Lord for that! We can continue to say “I’m sorry” whenever we do or say something or think something we shouldn’t, but it’s more than saying sorry on our part. It is to completely stop, to completely cut ourselves off of what is causing us to stumble.

In a perfect world, it wouldn’t be so hard! But it is, but thank the Lord for his unfailing love. And when we do mess up, do not centralize on the negative and beat yourself up; let God bring your strength back up to fight against Satan next time. We must focus on not on putting ourselves down, but to continue to get over it and begin the journey upward.

That’s hard for me, I feel like whenever I do something or say something or say I’ll do something and I don’t, I feel like I go back on my word with God, and that breaks my heart that I break His heart and let him down. It’s a learning process, but I learn to realize the amazing love God still has for me. Strive to live for Him, in His likeness! Praise the Lord, for who He is!!

And on another note…

I can’t help it, I love watching Hannah Montana and would think it’d be fabulous to have friends like Lily and Oliver..especially Oliver, he’s hilarious!

one of THOSE days..

I think when people say “It’s been one of those days..” I automatically thought that it was because it was gloomy and rainy outside, and you’re not super excited about the day but your not exactly wishing you could craw under a rock..It’s like you just feel bored and lazy don’t feel like doing anything.

Well I’m having one of those days..except in addition to all that, I feel like I have just one day of like sinking sadness, and not like a horrible tradegy sadness, it’s just I worry about things that I probably could worry about but I shouldn’t, and that I feel lonely, so I feel like one of those people on the commercial for depression and they start off being sad and all alone and then they take abilify and YAY they’re all better…

I blame it on the fact that I’m still not used to being away from home and moving away from and living on my own and not having any family here or close friends. My husband to be will be moving to Tennessee this summer, and I feel like I have an excuse to be happy about that, haha. I mean I know I should be and I am but I don’t want people to think “Well just because someone you know moves there doesn’t mean you don’t have to try and make other friends and that you should still branch out” Well, he’ll be my husband, so our connection is stronger and therefore I feel like I should be like I just want to hang out with him sometimes, most of the times.

But don’t worry, I still am branching out and still intend on making friends, I mean a girl has to have girlfriends right?! And double dating?? For sure! (Hah I sound like I’m trying to convince myself)

But it’s just been one of those days, and I pray Satan won’t be able to hold me to this, I want to break free.

BTW, I am also super excited, Tony and I moved up our wedding day to January  9th 2010! 11 months til our wedding!

Joshua 1:9!!!!

I’m getting married!!

Tony proposed on Thanksgiving Day 2008 and I threw up my hands and said yes!

Okay, so I didn’t literally throw up my hands but I probably would if I could even control what I was feeling haha. I DEFINITELY had a lot to be thankful that day! Not only the proposal and Tony, but how God has just been so good to me through moving to TN and this past year. God is an amazing God.

But now its finals, where we all need to buckle down and focus getting through 1 or 2 more weeks of school, and for some of us the finals extremely extremely count, like as in I am hanging on by a thread and a final could change my life.

But also, through this all, I encourage you to pray for our nation, a nation that struggles and is getting ready to go into a new year, with a new leader and new threats and new changes. God is our strength.

So recycle, pray, and give free hugs.

A post of firsts!

Well, just two more weeks until I am back in the great state of Texas! But I do have to say that this past weekend was rather eventful, and a filled with a few firsts of which one I was not grateful for, haha.

This past weekend was homecoming for MTSU and Sam and Jordan came down to the ‘boro to go to my very first football game against Louisiana Monroe, and we won! But it was a really cool experience, so much school spirit and youth and hype! Plus I liked my little pom pom to cheer on the players. (Imagine if so many more people had that spirit and energy for the Lord, and we all walked around with pom poms cheering others on in their walk with Christ)….well, the parking lot for the game on campus was of course full and right across the street was the apartments that a couple of my friends lived at and I had parked in the visitors before many times for our monday night bible study and thought I could park in that parking lot again for the game. Well apparently I parked on the side that wasn’t for visitors and when we came back ready to get into my car and out of the wind and cold, lo and behold my car was gone!! It was the weirdest feeling, I was of course OH NO, OH MY GOSH, but I wasn’t completely freaking out or crying my eyes, because somehow I knew it was probably towed in a pound somewhere and God would take care of it. Summer and Bailey were home so we were able to sit in their warm apt. and find out where my car was, and they gladly drove us to the towing place. The only bummer was the fact that it cost quite a bit amount to get it back for such a poor, unemployed college student

But I was surrounded by good company and we were all safe and was reunited once again with my car, something I am very grateful for!

Later on that night I enjoyed a very comforting cup of caramel apple cider and such a wonderful conversation with my new friend at Starbucks. It is so good to sit and talk with someone that shares the love for the Lord as well, and has such a passion for people and sharing the gospel with people, I mean people walking on the street, in the town square, in the mall, wherever! It was so nice to have that, so she invited me to come out to the square after starbucks with her and another friend to just share the Word with people that walked around, and that was another first! Honestly, just going to the town square trying to start up conversation and talk about God. Some people ignored us, and some people actually stopped to listen and talk about ‘religion’ and God.

I have always known this and continue to know this but that is where I realized again how important it is to read the Word everyday, to memorize scripture, to live by it to not only be able to have truth and back up when talking to people but just for myself, to constantly refer back to what God-breathed and my walk. God is living and the Word is living and that is so great to know.

So, what comes with firsts, the first day of chilly weather, encounters; comes opportunity, challenges and times we can glorify God. It is good to surround yourself with people you don’t know as well to form friendships…but I am so very thankful and excited to be going home in a couple of weeks for Thanksgiving!

Break out the turkey and seasons greetings!

I honestly can’t believe I’ll be going home in 3 weeks for Thanksgiving Break! Seriously, since I’ve moved here I have been waiting for the end of the year to come and the holidays to be here, so I am pretty excited! But of course with the end of the year comes tests and finals. Though I am just kind of thankful that I didn’t have any papers or projects this semester, yaay for only tests! Haha.

But really thinking about, the end of th eyear will be here before we know it…

This was definitely the shortest post I’ve made!

what i love and what is still a part of me

i love to laugh, no doubt about that. And I laugh at the little things, the stupid things, sometimes at the most innappropriate times, at people, at situations, at myself. I like to watch people like Wanda Sykes and Will Smith because every time I watch them, I end up laughing my face off. It’s something I actually like about this world, that you can still laugh.

I used think that I was kind of stupid for laughing at the little things, but now I’m glad I do. People are so stressed, so worried, so mean nowadays that it’s good that you can laugh at the little things or things that YOU may not find amusing, but other people find it HILARIOUS. That’s what I’m starting to learn, everyone is different. Everyone has their own opinion, and I don’t wanna talk about the downright wrong versus right because that’s a gray, debatable, argumentative area..but if someone wants to wear a hoodie outside because THEY find it chilly, let them, they don’t need your narrative of how YOU don’t think it’s cold enough outside. If someone likes one type of music, GREAT, you don’t have to like it. And if someone finds something else funny, let them laugh, because you never know how long it took them to get there.

I’m learning about how different people are, and how I still care about what people think of me. And yeah, I’m pretty sure I’ll think about that for awhile, but I was getting ready for class today and I had a 10 minute debate with myself whether or not I should wear boots to class because it wasn’t super cold at the moment, but getting out of class at 8:45 I knew it would be much colder at night.

But I decided to wear them.

Because as I was walking around I kept telling myself “Your a big girl now Christina, you wanna wear your boots? Wear them, only you know how cold your feet will be”. And just realizing this now I must sound odd to even care about that haha, but I did, but I got over it.

Life is fun with little lessons like that. But it is getting colder, so hopefully I’ll be ready for the Tennessee fall…