This may not be a new realization but I feel like I’m realizing all over again that I love food. And not in a “I eat unhealthily every 2 hours” way but I love food blogs, pictures of food, new recipes, making it, baking it, I think it’s a beautiful thing..is that odd? Everyone should enjoy what they eat. I never really cooked much when I was younger, my family and I were very fortunate and blessed to have a full time nanny that made all our meals and lunches, and you would either think that I would hate to cook or that I didn’t know how, now in my 20s. But really, I LOVE to cook and I’m pretty good at it I believe. I might have..2 bad meals a month? I have a joy in finding beauty in food and I don’t think that’s a bad thing.
Which sorta leads into what’s been on my heart lately, emphasized by my pastor at church this past Sunday. “What is the current substitute for GOD?”
That’s a huge question, and very honest, and even if you don’t physically say it out loud..most of the time the answer is already right on your heart and on the tip of your tongue. I wouldn’t say I have an obsession of food, but I can very much thing what a certain food can do and what it can’t do for it. Which leads very “rabbit trail like” into what I think about myself and what I think others think about myself..what I’m supposed to look like. What I’m supposed to be doing. What I’m supposed to be wearing. It’s SO very easy to get wrapped up in the spider web of appearance and self consciousness, especially now where twit pics and facebook and social networks come in faster than the fastest pizza delivery. Where text messages come in so much quicker than it should. I get so focused on things, I’m human, I forget that I’ve put all that before my relationship with God and CULTIVATING it and focusing on HIS purpose for me. I forget to CULTIVATE relationships with others, to be encouraging others TRULY encouraging others rather than wondering what they think of me.
Sometimes I wish I could plunge into an ocean and come out with all the answers and kind of a fresh start. And I know with the sacrifice at the cross, I am forgiven and have been given love and freedom. But I distract myself with such crazy things like TV, thoughts, fillers… I want to be rich in relationship with the creator, I want to have invested friendships and relationships. And being a DOER. It’s a challenge, and I pray that you will be convicted to look at your life from the outside, as I am doing now. I pray that we encourage each other through this journey of life. That our eyes are truly fixed on the One who has given us LIFE.
