forgiveness, is more than saying sorry

it makes me laugh whenever i sing that, from the movie Just Friends! but in a way, its kinda the truth.

we serve a MERCIFUL and FORGIVING Father, and thank the Lord for that! We can continue to say “I’m sorry” whenever we do or say something or think something we shouldn’t, but it’s more than saying sorry on our part. It is to completely stop, to completely cut ourselves off of what is causing us to stumble.

In a perfect world, it wouldn’t be so hard! But it is, but thank the Lord for his unfailing love. And when we do mess up, do not centralize on the negative and beat yourself up; let God bring your strength back up to fight against Satan next time. We must focus on not on putting ourselves down, but to continue to get over it and begin the journey upward.

That’s hard for me, I feel like whenever I do something or say something or say I’ll do something and I don’t, I feel like I go back on my word with God, and that breaks my heart that I break His heart and let him down. It’s a learning process, but I learn to realize the amazing love God still has for me. Strive to live for Him, in His likeness! Praise the Lord, for who He is!!

And on another note…

I can’t help it, I love watching Hannah Montana and would think it’d be fabulous to have friends like Lily and Oliver..especially Oliver, he’s hilarious!

one of THOSE days..

I think when people say “It’s been one of those days..” I automatically thought that it was because it was gloomy and rainy outside, and you’re not super excited about the day but your not exactly wishing you could craw under a rock..It’s like you just feel bored and lazy don’t feel like doing anything.

Well I’m having one of those days..except in addition to all that, I feel like I have just one day of like sinking sadness, and not like a horrible tradegy sadness, it’s just I worry about things that I probably could worry about but I shouldn’t, and that I feel lonely, so I feel like one of those people on the commercial for depression and they start off being sad and all alone and then they take abilify and YAY they’re all better…

I blame it on the fact that I’m still not used to being away from home and moving away from and living on my own and not having any family here or close friends. My husband to be will be moving to Tennessee this summer, and I feel like I have an excuse to be happy about that, haha. I mean I know I should be and I am but I don’t want people to think “Well just because someone you know moves there doesn’t mean you don’t have to try and make other friends and that you should still branch out” Well, he’ll be my husband, so our connection is stronger and therefore I feel like I should be like I just want to hang out with him sometimes, most of the times.

But don’t worry, I still am branching out and still intend on making friends, I mean a girl has to have girlfriends right?! And double dating?? For sure! (Hah I sound like I’m trying to convince myself)

But it’s just been one of those days, and I pray Satan won’t be able to hold me to this, I want to break free.

BTW, I am also super excited, Tony and I moved up our wedding day to January  9th 2010! 11 months til our wedding!

Joshua 1:9!!!!