what i love and what is still a part of me

i love to laugh, no doubt about that. And I laugh at the little things, the stupid things, sometimes at the most innappropriate times, at people, at situations, at myself. I like to watch people like Wanda Sykes and Will Smith because every time I watch them, I end up laughing my face off. It’s something I actually like about this world, that you can still laugh.

I used think that I was kind of stupid for laughing at the little things, but now I’m glad I do. People are so stressed, so worried, so mean nowadays that it’s good that you can laugh at the little things or things that YOU may not find amusing, but other people find it HILARIOUS. That’s what I’m starting to learn, everyone is different. Everyone has their own opinion, and I don’t wanna talk about the downright wrong versus right because that’s a gray, debatable, argumentative area..but if someone wants to wear a hoodie outside because THEY find it chilly, let them, they don’t need your narrative of how YOU don’t think it’s cold enough outside. If someone likes one type of music, GREAT, you don’t have to like it. And if someone finds something else funny, let them laugh, because you never know how long it took them to get there.

I’m learning about how different people are, and how I still care about what people think of me. And yeah, I’m pretty sure I’ll think about that for awhile, but I was getting ready for class today and I had a 10 minute debate with myself whether or not I should wear boots to class because it wasn’t super cold at the moment, but getting out of class at 8:45 I knew it would be much colder at night.

But I decided to wear them.

Because as I was walking around I kept telling myself “Your a big girl now Christina, you wanna wear your boots? Wear them, only you know how cold your feet will be”. And just realizing this now I must sound odd to even care about that haha, but I did, but I got over it.

Life is fun with little lessons like that. But it is getting colder, so hopefully I’ll be ready for the Tennessee fall…

its beginning to look a lot like fall time

oh to Tennessee and its cooler climates and changing leaves! its in the summer to fall stage and id rather it be one or the other. and i say this now but i do look forward to the fall and winter TN has to offer! it’s exciting I guess being in a new state and all.

what a REFRESHER! I went back home for Fall Break for 5 days and it was SO nice. I spent time with friends and family and a day at the amazing state fair of Texas. I definitely miss home and it was wierd going back to “visit” when I’ve lived there for a good 7 years. I so enjoyed hanging out with the college group at sheeva’s birthday dinner and being with my parents. So now I’m back in TN getting ready for more tests and intramural volleyball and waiting til’ Thanksgiving gets here!

I’m still looking for a job, and I had a pretty good interview and chance with a realty place, but in the end it’s not what God had for me at the time and though it kinda sucked I’d rather be somewhere God wants me to be. And who knows! If i don’t find a job I could very possibly go home for the whole Christmas break and work the 2 jobs back at home, which would be amazing!

And I think that trust has always been something I have been needing to learn and do in God. But really since being here, it has definitely been a daily thing to completely trust Him with where I may find a job, being safe in a new environment and just mentally not having a break down from being home sick. And God has been so good to be my strength and my hugs when I need them.

So I look forward to the next couple of months and the holiday season! Which is crazy to even think that Christmas is in 2 months!! The end of 2008 is near and soon it will be 2009. Honestly, the years just go by faster and faster..I mean REALLY! Which I don’t mind all so much, soon Tony will be able to move up here and soon we’ll be done with school and start our actual careers. Kids, we’re growing up so fast!