what i love and what is still a part of me

i love to laugh, no doubt about that. And I laugh at the little things, the stupid things, sometimes at the most innappropriate times, at people, at situations, at myself. I like to watch people like Wanda Sykes and Will Smith because every time I watch them, I end up laughing my face off. It’s something I actually like about this world, that you can still laugh.

I used think that I was kind of stupid for laughing at the little things, but now I’m glad I do. People are so stressed, so worried, so mean nowadays that it’s good that you can laugh at the little things or things that YOU may not find amusing, but other people find it HILARIOUS. That’s what I’m starting to learn, everyone is different. Everyone has their own opinion, and I don’t wanna talk about the downright wrong versus right because that’s a gray, debatable, argumentative area..but if someone wants to wear a hoodie outside because THEY find it chilly, let them, they don’t need your narrative of how YOU don’t think it’s cold enough outside. If someone likes one type of music, GREAT, you don’t have to like it. And if someone finds something else funny, let them laugh, because you never know how long it took them to get there.

I’m learning about how different people are, and how I still care about what people think of me. And yeah, I’m pretty sure I’ll think about that for awhile, but I was getting ready for class today and I had a 10 minute debate with myself whether or not I should wear boots to class because it wasn’t super cold at the moment, but getting out of class at 8:45 I knew it would be much colder at night.

But I decided to wear them.

Because as I was walking around I kept telling myself “Your a big girl now Christina, you wanna wear your boots? Wear them, only you know how cold your feet will be”. And just realizing this now I must sound odd to even care about that haha, but I did, but I got over it.

Life is fun with little lessons like that. But it is getting colder, so hopefully I’ll be ready for the Tennessee fall…

its beginning to look a lot like fall time

oh to Tennessee and its cooler climates and changing leaves! its in the summer to fall stage and id rather it be one or the other. and i say this now but i do look forward to the fall and winter TN has to offer! it’s exciting I guess being in a new state and all.

what a REFRESHER! I went back home for Fall Break for 5 days and it was SO nice. I spent time with friends and family and a day at the amazing state fair of Texas. I definitely miss home and it was wierd going back to “visit” when I’ve lived there for a good 7 years. I so enjoyed hanging out with the college group at sheeva’s birthday dinner and being with my parents. So now I’m back in TN getting ready for more tests and intramural volleyball and waiting til’ Thanksgiving gets here!

I’m still looking for a job, and I had a pretty good interview and chance with a realty place, but in the end it’s not what God had for me at the time and though it kinda sucked I’d rather be somewhere God wants me to be. And who knows! If i don’t find a job I could very possibly go home for the whole Christmas break and work the 2 jobs back at home, which would be amazing!

And I think that trust has always been something I have been needing to learn and do in God. But really since being here, it has definitely been a daily thing to completely trust Him with where I may find a job, being safe in a new environment and just mentally not having a break down from being home sick. And God has been so good to be my strength and my hugs when I need them.

So I look forward to the next couple of months and the holiday season! Which is crazy to even think that Christmas is in 2 months!! The end of 2008 is near and soon it will be 2009. Honestly, the years just go by faster and faster..I mean REALLY! Which I don’t mind all so much, soon Tony will be able to move up here and soon we’ll be done with school and start our actual careers. Kids, we’re growing up so fast!

homesick much?

So I’ve been here over a month now! I have a faced the wrath of the homesick.

Like one of my favorite Coldplay songs..”nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard”

I know it will get better over time, and I just have to plug myself in and keep myself busy, but I can’t wait for the days to where I will be saying “Wow yeah, when I first moved here it was hard! And I still get a little homesick at times, since then it has been GREAT and I love it!”

And I have yet to write about an exciting new job! Hopefully I really will write about it sometime this week. On a happier note, I have taken my first couple of tests in a couple of classes last week and usually the first test is the worst because you don’t know how your prof. will structure it, I did very well I must say! Now to only keep it up the rest of the semester.

I like Tennessee, I like the hills and the greenery. I like the southern hospitality. I like that Murfreesboro is a small little town. I like the people, too.

I’m getting used to apartment living life. Downstairs neighbors though? Not so much…

It will get better.

It will get better.

To God be ALL the glory.

hello, Tennessee. are you ready for me?

well, its been a while. and its been a whirlwind of a journey so far! i have just moved to the fabulous town of murfreesboro, TN last wk actually. its 30 minutes south of Nashville and about 12 hours away from my home sweet home. i started classes this week at MTSU and all my classes have at least 150 ppl in them, so everything is a big change! i like it though.

today was the first real sunny day, since I got here its been either cloudy or straight up rain. i’m glad its sunny again..but I gotta admit i’m proud of myself and thank my God, because I usually let the weather effect my mood and it would have been REALLY easy to get a lot more depressed because i’m away from home and everything familiar AND it was raining outside. since moving I have actually checked out a church here, and of course..their college ministry had about 200 college aged kids. ahh..murfreesboro is a small big town.

i live by myself and have already scared myself thinking someone was walking through my door or sitting on my couch (the way my blanket was on it looked like a leg..it was pretty interesting after i got over my heart racing 900 beats per minute). it’s funny, I told myself I would never live by myself because I would freak myself out too much..and look at me now

i miss Texas of course, and my family, my friends, knowing where i was going, a few stores and close by amenities, Tony..but this is where God has me for now and how amazing is He that He has kept me calm and happy and let me know that He is always there. to God be ALL the Glory.

 

so with that..check back next time (hopefully i’ll be writing about an exciting new job!)

Would I rather be really hot or really cold?

It’s like a bajillion degrees outside! Okay, maybe more like 95 degrees. So the other day, I was thinking would I rather be freezing or stinkin’ hot? And I tossed the two options back and forth and though well if I were cold, I could just put more and more layers on. But if I were hot, well..you can only go so far.

I can tell you right now, I am sweating glistening alot and the AC just can’t seem to keep up with me. 

You know what I wish? I wish there was an “easy” button like on the staples commercials. Watching the news, there is barely any good news on anymore, and now it’s all about gas prices going up (which is RIDICULOUS!) and presidential what have you’s, crime..etc. 

So I think we should make an easy button. Like..for gas, can’t we just make an easy button that would solve all our oil problems? Sometimes I really do think “How hard can it be?!” But..I’m not trained for those kinds of problems, and I’m sure the government wishes there was an easy button, but how awesome would it be if there were an easy button?! Or a store that had everything you wanted, like the Walgreens commercial..shame on TV for giving us false hope. Hah, I guess thats what the entertainment business is.

The only thing I thank God for, is..thanking God for God. That someday we’ll be in a place where it’s always happy, easy, and perfect. No gas prices. No wars. No bad news on TV..

But whats wierd is that when I was younger I used think I was a “bad” christian because when I would lay in bed at night, and think about heaven I was scared to death about it. I think because I could never fathom how amazing it was. I didn’t think it was a bad place, ever..I just couldn’t imagine how life would be like. I think it’s because when I thought of heaven, it was always the “foggy, misty, dreamy” type places..where when you try to fly in your dreams, but if feels like your swimming through the air..? 

Am I the only one that thinks that?

2 days in a row?!

I must really like this!

But this blog won’t be nearly as long. I just thought that everyone should sit more often, take a sip of tea, close your eyes and be still more often.

Especially now with the end of the semester, things can get so crazy, we can be so focused yet not at the same time. But we need not forget who we are living for and who all the Glory goes to. So why do I add tea? Well I’m sitting at work right now, and I just watched a clip of Gossip Girl online and it was like a 5 minute clip of the most drama I’ve ever seen, and of course I know it’s just “TV” but some people do have crazy 5-years worth of drama into 5-minutes kind of lives..and it burdens my heart, to know that it is physically impossible to reach across the whole world..

but that we shouldn’t.

We shouldn’t lose focus and that we should fix our eyes on Jesus, the wonderful Creator, and green tea works for me because it physically relaxes my body and clears my mind and brings me back to my path.

Whats your green tea? Maybe today deserves a second helping..

Waiting…

So, since I last posted which was like..2 days ago? I’ve thought about everything! And not necessarily, deep thoughts either..but I did think a lot. And this is why I LOVE blogging, because I was thinking to myself “okay christina, what should my blogs be about, what would they be interested in?” And so it made think about everything, what I did that day, if it was funny, if it was stupid, would they think I was stupid, did it show my love for the Lord, has what I done been polishing off my Christian image?

But one of the things that I really thought about, was whether or not I would be accepted into the 2 schools I applied to in Tennessee. Back in the day of 2006 and 2007, I was pretty sure I wanted to go to SMU after Quad C and then go on to paralegal school and then try to work my way into entertainment law after that. I didn’t know how I was going to do that, but I was. Well, needless to say I didn’t get into SMU, and went to Texas Woman’s University after quad c. I stayed in the dorms there, my first semester. Wanted to get a feel for that dorm life…and I think I had been in college too long to really enjoy it, for I moved back home for this Spring semester. Well in between Fall and Spring, I don’t even remember how Tony and I got on the subject of music business, but he told me that I could get a BA in music business, and said that if he really wanted to go for it, he would have gone to a school called Belmont after Quad C. So I looked it up and liked what I saw, and then started to look up other schools that offered that degree, and got really excited.

(This is starting to become long)

Well, after thinking about it, praying about it, talking to my parents, it’s not like I’ve changed my major, but now instead of just a straight shot at General Business or Business Administration. I am now pursuing a degree in Bachelors of Arts in Music Business…or maybe I should say that AFTER I get accepted into a school so I can feel official.

So that’s what has been on my mind for a little bit. TWU FINALLY has posted my grades, I’m waiting on one, my dance class, which I know I got an A in, YAY, so now they have to post it so my transcript can be sent out..or maybe it has been sent out even without them posting the grades for the students…either way, I sit here and WAIT!

Patience..hmm, that’s our KidStuf virtue of the month. Definitely learning that right now!

On a less serious note, I went to the dentist on Tuesday. The dentist is NO fun, no matter how many free toothbrushes and teeth equipment they give you. But its okay! Because tonight we’re having a girls night, with microwaveable “dinners” and 27 Dresses..which I LOVE. I’m excited about that.

I have to stop typing now, my laptop has either been in my lap or on a desk that is leveled with my wrists, so I feel like my wrists are slowly cramping up and I won’t be able to type anymore..darn, I wanted this second entry to be great…guess you’ll just have to come back for more!

Another blog, another journey

I love blogging! Or journaling…whatever it is nowadays.

I stopped writing in my xanga account about a year and a half ago, I guess and I miss keeping up with it almost weekly. So, I thought I would start another one with another blog site. So I guess we’ll see how this goes and I’ll have to come back to update yall on..well, ME!